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Tired

5 minutes word prompt for Five Minute Fridays with Kate Motaung.

Tired to be worn out, exhausted, have no energy or to be tired of something in particular.

I think we can all relate to the word tired.  Many are tired after work, after a day of shopping, after a day of fun… so many things physically tire us but that can be a good feeling, especially if it was fun or an accomplishment of something.  However, there is another kind of tired where we become drained and just want life to stop.

Recently that is how I felt.  I was tired of the stress and anxiety of life.  Physically I felt exhausted all the time.  Just like there was no life in me anymore.  Then I got tired of being tired, especially since I could not understand why I felt tired all the time.

For myself much of the tiredness comes from an overactive thought life, I had to think about what I was thinking about and notice the words coming out of my mouth to start to change, to change my attitude and change my thinking about life.

Life is difficult, God never said it would be easy and the sooner it is accepted that this is so, the sooner I can make a change in my thinking so that I can overcome the tiredness.

Jesus said he has overcome the world, he calls me to come rest in Him.  When I come to him he helps me to overcome my worldly worries of thinking, over thinking, what my circumstances are.  Lately, he reminds me over and over, seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things will be added unto you.  He will provide and take care of me.  All the worry and over thinking doesn’t add anything to my life except tiredness.  To be relieved of being tired it, for me, is about trusting in Him, not overextending myself because of the worlds’ demands but a resting in Him, knowing he will take care of me, because He cares for me.

So, I am on a new path to freedom from this heavy tiredness I have been carrying, I am changing my thinking about life and finding there is joy found in gratefulness, in His presence strength and encouragement can be found to walk through one more day not knowing, yet knowing.  Focus on Him is the way for me to get out of the depths of tiredness because He is my strength.

In Proverbs 23:7  it says, “As a man thinks in his heart so is he”.  If we think and speak “I am tired” all the time then we create that tiredness and heaviness of heart.  I didn’t use to believe this because I thought, I am just expressing how I feel, but as I have grown in the Lord and listened to others I now see that maybe it is true, maybe half the battle against the tiredness I feel is a change of attitude, a change of thinking and speaking.  Maybe that is where half the battle is to be won.

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Regrets (five-minute Friday word)

 

Regrets, I’ve had a few….   

As I started to think about this word, this old song came to mind.  I know it’s not biblical or uplifting but oh my isn’t it truth, but isn’t this what the world is good at, at teaching us to do.  We all have done things our own way, just like it says in this song, some of us with more regrets than others.  Isaiah 53:6 says,

All of us like sheep, have strayed away.  We have left God’s paths to follow our own.  Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all.

Unfortunately my regrets are not too few, but too many.  This morning, on Facebook, I was checking to see about a nephew of mine who had not posted anything for a while.  He is struggling with a severe drug addiction and I found on his page a comment that broke my heart.  A comment about Christians, and oh regret fell and surrounded me, regret that I had not stayed more connected to him, involved in his life.

You see he was the first nephew born in the same city where I was living, I was so happy.  I was young and I was not a christian at the time.  I was a mess.  I left that city to go find life elsewhere and I did find life.  Eventually I found Him who is LIFE and because I found Him I then had new life too.  This new life journey took me farther from my family, however, it was my choice to not stay in touch.  I walked away because no one wanted to hear about Jesus, I tried, I prayed, I cried, but they just didn’t want to hear about what it means to be born again.  To really believe.  So, believing I was following the Lord I went away.  I travelled, I went to Bible College and I taught overseas, but I did not keep in touch with my family a lot.  Now, I regret this.  I don’t know if it would have made a difference in my nephew’s life or not.  I know regret will not change anything, I know it will only tear me down and this is not right to allow it to destroy me, because I cannot make decisions for my nephew or anyone else.

So, I must lay this burden down.  I must take the next step and continue to pray, because prayer does make a difference, even in the hardest hearts.  Psalm 55:22

Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.

This is my hope, that He can take the burden of guilt and regret.

Matthew 11, Jesus said, Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you.  Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.

2 Corinthians 7:10, tells me, For the kind of sorrow God wants us to experience leads us away from sin and results in salvation.  There’s no regret for that kind of sorrow. ..

So, I see the way out from regret is to have the godly sorrow that casts the shame and regret on Jesus’s shoulders.  Here I can find freedom from all my regrets.  Sorrow over our regrets is healthy, because it has a refining influence on us.

Ecclesiastes 7:3, Sorrow is better than laughter, for sadness has a refining influence on us.

James 4 tells us to Let there be tears for what you have done.  Let there be sorrow and deep grief.  Let there be sadness instead of laughter and gloom instead of joy.

But then, if we repent, and call on God, humble ourselves He has a great promise for us.

Humble yourself before the Lord, and He will lift you up in honor.

James 4 also tells us, We must resist the devil and run to God, no matter the regret.  Turn to him, cast the burden on him and trust him to work it all out.  I think to realize that life is not in my hands but in his, that My Father comes close to me when I come close to him in a humble attitude.  He will take care of it, he will guide me and lead me, even in what and how to pray so I can truly be free of regret because He is and He always will be the one in charge.

(I cheated this time and wrote a little longer but really hope this blesses someone else today, I love how God speaks and shows truth no matter the word for writing on Fridays.  He is so good and I hope hope fills your heart as you read these words.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Why?

Today’s five-minute write word is WHY.  

How many times I have asked why of the Lord.  Why is there no time to just do the things I like and want to do?  Why do I have to work so many hours?  Why do you ask me to write yet there is no support and understanding from the people around me so I work outside of the home? Why do I not have more energy? Why?

Why is one of the questions we all learn to ask at an early age.  Why is the sky blue?  Why can’t I do that?  Why can’t I come with you? Why? Why?

It’s not that it is wrong to ask Why but it depends on your attitude when you ask and the kind of why question.  When kids ask why do birds sing?  Why is the sky blue?  These are seeking knowledge kind of questions but when they start to question why you said no you cannot watch that movie, or no you cannot go alone to the park, do you want them to trust that you know best or to believe they are wiser than you and know the best way to do things?

As I have gotten older and grown in my relationship with God, He has brought me to the understanding that “Why” is the wrong question to ask.  He made me aware of how I felt when asked why I did things the way I did.  It was this revelation of my own response to the question why that helped me to understand that why is the wrong question to ask.

When people ask me why I did something, I feel attacked, I feel like they are calling me stupid and that I don’t measure up, especially when they offer advice or start with “If it was me I would ….”  As soon as I had that revelation about myself, I came to understand why the question “Why?” is not the right question to ask God.

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In Job 24, Job asks, “Why doesn’t the Almighty bring the wicked to judgment?  Why must the godly wait for him in vain?” 

Before that in chapter 13 Job states, “I want to argue my case with God himself”.

(Isn’t that what we are doing when we ask Him why? Read Chapter 13 and see all the questions Job asks, one of which is “Are you defending God….?”)

However, The Lord did not answer immediately, it is in chapter 38 that He responds to Job, “Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorant words? Brace yourself like a man because I have some questions for you, and you must answer them.”

Are we ready for that same response when we are wanting to bring our case before Him, because when we ask Why?  is that not what we are doing.

The Lord showed me how when I would ask him why I was not trusting Him.  I was questioning His wisdom and knowledge of the situation, of me, of others and not trusting that He knew what He was doing.  That it was an “attack” on His Character.  Instead He turned my question to, What are you doing in this?  This was so I would start to seek what His purpose was and how can I join Him in what He is doing.  How can I cooperate with Him so His will is accomplished in the situation.

In my journey since returning to Canada I have had the question Why on my lips a few times, but in His mercy and grace He has helped me to turn my Why into a vision and picture of what He desires and longs to accomplish in me and in the people around me. He has turned my focus to one of seeking what He is doing in the situation, what is He setting up to accomplish in me and in others through the uncomfortable situations He has brought me into.

I think when we ask the Lord Why He is doing something or allowing something to happen it is a suggestion to Him that we know better, we would do it differently, it is questioning His ability to do what is best and His wisdom in all things.

It’s not that He gets upset at us for asking why, it’s not that He becomes angry about it but it is the wrong question.  He will not answer it because He does not ever need to defend himself.

The next time someone asks you why you are doing something the way you do, take note of your internal response.  How does that question make you feel?  and How do you respond when asked Why?

Maybe instead of asking why,  we should remember the biggest and best thing He has done.  The Father sent His Son to earth.  Why?  For us, so we could remember that He knows, He cares and He is there.  He suffered the loss of His Son, He watched His Son be murdered by the people He wanted to save.  Where does that leave our question Why?

 

Book Review

Passion Week

I am reading a book by David Kitz calledThe Soldier Who Killed A King.  It is a story about the last week Yeshua walked on the earth.  A story of confusion, questions, doubt and faith.  A story that brings the truth to a Roman soldier who is serving in Jerusalem and is a leader among the soldiers.  It is about his encounters with Yeshua and the evil wannabe king Herod who came to Jerusalem for Passover.  

I love how David intertwines the two main characters together through observation, conversation and direct encounters.  How the soldier thinks about what he sees, hears and experiences.  I appreciate how he portrays the Romans as human in all ways, just as we are too.  I think we often forget,  in light of the stories and history we know, that they also had feelings, thoughts and desires.  That not all their desires were evil.  David does a great job of portraying what it would have been like for a man to live in those days.  I know for myself I really never thought about the soldiers except as ones who could be cruel and hard hearted, never thinking about their humanity, that maybe it wasn’t easy for them to do the things they were commanded to do.

If you enjoy reading and like an engaging, thought provoking book, this one is for you.

 

To see more of David’s books

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Privelege

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Privelege, 5 minute word prompt for today.

After living in China for more than 5 years, then coming back to Canada, I see how privelege can damage a society, because an attitude of entitlement takes hold.  No matter what country everyone feels they have certain priveleges that no one should take away.

As I read others posts and pondered this word this morning I was brought to Philippians 2: 5-11 

Though he was God,

he did not think of equality with God 

as something to cling to.

Instead, he gave up his divine priveleges;

He took the humble position of a slave 

and was born as a human being.

When he appeared in human form

he humbled himself in obedience to God 

and died a criminals death on a cross.

Therefore, God elevated him to the place of highest honor

and gave him the name above all other names,

that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,

in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 

and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, 

to the glory of God the Father.

The one who deserves privelege, was the most worthy of all priveleges, who had no sin, no selfish motive, no evil desires, nothing in him that spoke of, reeked of, or hinted at an attitude of entitlement gave it all up for us.  

Are we willing to do the same for others?  Am I?  Can I give up the privelege of a home, a job, a good life,  the belief that I deserve all that I think I need and want to serve others in a humble state?

Right now where I live is not my home, in fact I am split between two homes that are not mine.  Am I willing to give up my desire and belief that I should have my own place in order to serve in these two homes with the humble attitude of my Father, of my Savior, of my Lord.  I pray the Holy Spirit will help me to follow my Lord’s example and be willing to lay down my life for the sake of others.

 

 

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Agree

Todays five-minute word is, Agree.  This is a time where we write for five minutes on a topic and then post with no editing.  So, I ask you to look past the mistakes to the heart.

To agree with one another is that the same as having unity?  What are we to agree on to have unity with one another?  I think we have unity when we agree about what is most important in life.  The one thing scripture teaches which is most important is LOVE.

To love God with all of our hearts, souls, strength and mind, and to love our neighbors as our selves.  Love is the one thing all people who believe in Jesus as the messiah, must agree on in order to have Unity.  If there is no agreement here that Love is the greatest and love must be what we pursue then there will be no unity in the body of Christ.  So then we must also agree on what Love is.  In our society we have a very weak view or understanding of Love, a very unbiblical view of love.  We love everything from books to food to adventure to movies, but our love for people is weak.  Love covers over a multitude of sins, that doesn’t mean we tolerate sin in our brothers and sisters (end of five minutes) but that we acknowledge it, confront them, and forgive them, and then the hard part keep walking with them, pain and all.  Love never quits, never ends, never walks away.  This is the kind of Love the Father has, the Son has and the Spirit has.  If we do any less are we really agreeing with The One who died for us, giving up all His glory to dwell among men to be spit upon, beaten, hated and then killed for us.

We must remember Judas, the one who betrayed Jesus, was walking, eating and serving in the group of followers of Jesus.  He was a disciple of Jesus.  Jesus knew him, Jesus loved him, Jesus fed him, Jesus talked with him, Jesus ate with him, Jesus washed his feet, Jesus trusted him with the money, Jesus kept walking with him though his heart was hard, Jesus forgave him every step of the way, knowing all that was in his heart, Jesus loved him and prayed for him while walking with him, and talking with him.

Now that is love, the never-ending, never stopping, never giving up kind of Love.

Love that is the one thing we must agree on.

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Intentional

Five minute Friday where we write for five minutes on a word.  Today’s word is INTENTIONAL

To be intentional is to make a plan to make something happen, to reach a goal.

Today I read a post about family, what is the thing that keeps family from being family,  and as I read it I immediately started to see the Church and The family of God in it.  It was a sad yet a revealing word to me about what Family means and how we fall short of it in the body of Christ because of our own hurts and struggles and pain.  We often build walls and say we can choose who to like, using the same excuses of the world, that personalities clash.

What about Jesus, did the Father choose only those disciples with personalities that would not clash?  Didn’t the Father choose one that would betray his son and yet still ask his son to love him and not reject him, but walk with him daily, to be intentional in his relationship with him, pursuing him no matter what.  Remember Jesus even washed this disciples feet, I wouldn’t doubt that his heart was broken and that he wept over /(end of five minutes) him many times, bringing him to the Father.

So often we respond just like the world in our relationships and commitment to each other in the body of Christ.  I want to be intentional in my relationships to pursue them even though they hurt me, to keep loving no matter what, because that is how Yeshua is with me.  When my words are less than reverent or worshipful towards him, when I rant and rave in anger because I am hurt, when I pour out all my sorrows, frustrations and pain in a less than holy way to him, he still pursues me, loves me, and keeps walking with me.  I want to be like him, to love like he does, no matter the person, because it isn’t about personality clashes or having the right to choose, it is about Love and we have no right to choose the people God brings into our lives.  He chooses for His purposes and His intention.  God is very intentional about who He brings into our lives, and we need to be intentional about loving every person He brings into our lives, no matter what.

 

 

 

 

Five Minute Fridays

Simplify

This weeks five-minute Friday word is simplify.

To simplify: less is more.

Once I worked in a crisis nursery and this was the playroom motto, to have less play choices actually caused the children to enjoy the ones they had more.  It made it easier for clean up as well because there was enough space to put everything away in an orderly fashion where they were more accessible.

Since coming back from China I have a small space that is mine, but I have many boxes that I had left at my brothers of my “stuff”.  I am wanting to simplify because I have to move again one day and because I like to travel I will not want a lot of extra stuff to manage.  However, this is not easy.  Many of the boxes are books, pictures, and journals.  What to keep and what not to keep is the question of my life right now.  How to use the little space I have and maintain some semblance of order so I can find the things I need.

To simplify my life can also mean to stop doing so much other things, things that tire and stress, to simplify is to be wise in what we focus on.  Am I focused on earning money or am I focused on Glorifying God?  Am I focused on me or on God?  My mind is very busy, always going so fast the rest of me can’t keep up, I can be miles ahead in my thoughts about everything that I become stressed about not enough time, not enough time to be still and rest, not enough time to finish projects I started, not enough time alone, not enough time with people.  Maybe to simplify my life I first have to simplify my thoughts.  To not worry and stress over what doesn’t get done but to move more slowly and do well the things I do with taking time to breathe, focus and rest in-between.  It seems to simplify my life means I need to simplify my thoughts and yet accept that life can be complicated, complex, difficult, and overwhelmingly too busy at times, but it is possible to learn to slow down, to downsize and to let go of that which is not necessary.

This one thing that is necessary is to spend time with God, so I can learn from Him how to slow down, even my thoughts and find rest and peace in a simplified life with Him.

 

Five Minute Fridays

Motivate

This weeks five-minute write word is motivate.  I have been reading through Daniel and as I read I see everyone is motivated by something different in this story.  Nebuchadnezzar was motivated by what?  Fame, Power, Control?  No he had all these already.  He wanted to be worshipped.  He wanted the people to see him as god.  Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego what was their motivation to choose the fire over worshipping a gold statue?  Did they want attention? power? fame? Did they think that by defying the earthly king they would have a higher status with the Eternal King?  What was their motivation?  Were they more afraid of their God than the King?  I believe their motivation was their loyalty to their God and his statutes.  I believe it was love for him that compelled them to choose the fire over bowing down.  What motivated the astrologers to snitch on them?  Probably a desire to be seen as greater and better and more worthy than them.  Jealousy.  I think that was their great motivator.  They saw that they were honored and had a higher position than they and they wanted to steal that from them.

So what will motivate me this year?  Will my desires for money, fame, attention, or will I be motivated by the love of Christ?  I pray that it is love, his love for me and his love in me that motivates me to do all that I do.  Whether choosing a movie to watch a book to read an activity to do or work.  I pray it is his love that compels and motivates me to do everything I do.

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Different

Different well that is what I am.  My whole life I felt different.   Different from everyone else.  I cannot explain it but it just has always been this way.   I never tried to be different but always wanted to be the same and yet, I am different.  I think differently about things than most people, I see things differently than others.

I even experience life differently.

But really can’t that be said of us all.  After all we all have a unique DNA and a unique journey, no two are a like.  So is being different a terrible thing.?

No, it is actually a God thing. 

So no matter who you are or what your journey has been like you are different, we all are, the one common denominator is, we are all created in the image of God, our Father.  So, we should celebrate and rejoice in our  differences.  It is how God made us, and because of that our differences are good.